Intimidated By God's Calling Placed On My Life?

For the first time, since I have received God's calling, I feel intimidated about the task ahead of me. And, it's not just a little fear... I am confident that the word I am looking for is closer to "terrified." Why though!? At first, I was afraid of going alone and being by myself in a foreign country, but God was faithful with His promise to me and He has provided. Now, it's the mission as a whole! It's my future as a whole! IT'S EVERYTHING! I'm so nervous about all the timing and I'm frustrated with the fact that I have NO clue what I will be doing over there in Mongolia.

So, I would like to share with you what I learned about fear and where it comes from.

In 2 Timothy 1:7 we read that God "has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, sound judgment, and self control."

Through this verse, we know that fear is not of and from God. Therefore, fear is from the enemy -Satan.

It seems like fear is starting to kick in, in order to distract me from the mission HERE and NOW... and the enemy is doing a good job. Thankfully, God is on my side and He has already been and is victorious!

"... Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine. I will be with you when you pass through the waters, and when you pass through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. You will not be scorched when you walk through the fire, and the flame will not burn you." -Isaiah 43:1-2

There is nothing that my God can not handle and God will always be there to be my strength, my shepherd, comfort, and my Lord. How awesome is that?

Why do I have such little faith (Matthew 8:26)? What is too big for my God to handle? Nothing.

So, today's lesson learned is that I need to trust and have faith in my God. Better yet, I need to surrender to His plans and allow Him to take control, because if I am on my own I will be overwhelmed. And lastly, that I need to not overlook what God plan for me is NOW and I need to continue serving and worshiping Him while I'm waiting...

Thanks for reading. You may see a few more posts where I am "struggling" with something. These posts help me collect my thoughts and force me to do some research in the Bible for a solution... So bare with me. Haha!

"... I will not be shaken" -Psalm 62:6

Today has been a really rough day for me and the worst part is, nothing has gone wrong. I feel like my world is falling apart and that God is so far away. I feel absolutely horrible and this all started last night.

Thankfully, someone posted the verse from Psalm 62:6 which says: "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." That post on a homemade music video reminded me that I just need to run to Him as my fortress and that through Him I am not and WILL NOT be shaken.

I am not going to let anything shake my faith and I am not going to let the darkness to pull me down. My victory is in Christ and Christ alone. I know that He is there and that I just have to continue pushing and pulling through.

I walk by faith, not by sight... I may not feel the best right now and I may not feel as if God's next to me, but like the song "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl "I'll hold tight to what I know, because you're here and I'm never alone"

Thanks for dealing with a "not so happy" post...

Much love,
Megan Jazelle Wright

Good Grief! I haven't posted in forever!

So much has happened since this summer and, honestly, it is overwhelming! Let me try to sum it all up for you:

• My Daddy is home from thee Sand Box! Yay!

• While my Dad may be back, I only get to spend seven to eight months with him and the family... The Army put my father on orders for FT. Rucker, AL. I am NOT moving down with them. I just have to decide how long I am staying here until I move down to Toccoa Falls, GA for schooling.
  

• This year at camp, I decided to fully give my life to God and to become completely and wholly His. God really worked on me for a few months and on Oct. the 18th He officially called me, once again, to be a full time missionary to U.B, Mongolia.This time I accepted His call and surrendered completely to His will. Since then I have had the basic outline of my future mapped out for me and God has blessed me so much... I can't truly tell you how excited and how grateful I am for everything God has given me and I am so amazed that He is giving me another chance at life. I am SO undeserving!
  

• School just started again! I am finishing up my last semester of High School... Middle College has been wonderful to and for me! Currently I am only taking ONE class in High School and it is economics. When College starts up I will be taking two classes with Austin Peay: English 1020 and Music Appreciation and I will be taking U.S. History and Christian Worldview with Bryan College.
  

I guess those are the only two main points. I could go on and on about both, but I will spare you and your time!

Please, please pray for me... I am really nervous about my future, in the sense of time. Like I said, God has revealed the basic outline of my life and I know everything that I need to know about my future. Now, it's just waiting to see what His timing is and what goes where in which year... So to say.

I have a feeling I am not making much sense... I have issues articulating my thoughts... :(

Anyways, have a wonderful weekend and I will try to keep you all updated on here!

A quick Update.

My father is officially home on R&R! It was so wonderful seeing him again.... You have no Idea.

I urge you, my friends, to have a good relationship with your parents. Every day is a gift you have been given, so make the most of it. To make the most of life, you need relationships... and Family should be the strongest bond you have on Earth. =]

I love you guys!!!

School starts soon!

Verses to dwell on....

1 Timothy 4:12 ”Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.”

2 Timothy 2:22 ”So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart.”

James 3:13-18 ”Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom… [T]he wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere. And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.”

Titus 3:1-11 ”Remind them to be submissive to rulers and authorities, to be obedient, to be ready for every good work, to speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people… I want you to insist on these things, so that those who have believed in God may be careful to devote themselves to good works. These things are excellent and profitable for people. But avoid foolish controversies, genealogies, dissensions, and quarrels about the law, for they are unprofitable and worthless. As for a person who stirs up division, after warning him once and then twice, have nothing more to do with him.”

Ephesians 4:29 "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."

My God is Mighty to Save...

1 Timothy 4:12 ”Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.”

Age is a number. Why do we let that hinder God's will for our life? Youth, let no one look down on you because you are young. Instead, be an example... Be a light for Christ.

You are the ones that are going to be running the churches in just a few years... Don't believe the lies you are told. You ARE important to the ministry. You can make a difference. You can start learning more and digging into the Word... You can decide to follow Christ and give yourself 100% to Him.

Stop believing in the lies you are told!!!!

Set yourselves apart from this world and live for GOD! Learn what your spiritual gifts are and be a part of Christ's body!!!

I am so sick and tired of youth saying they can't do anything. THAT IS SO NOT TRUE. We are young! We are strong! We have so much technology that makes it easier to reach out to others... Yet, are we furthering God's kingdom??? Are we giving our all?

This is something to think about... I realize I still need to apply all of this to my life. I am not perfect... But, I am striving to become more like Christ. I hope you will join me.

Pray and try to reach our generation... Pray and try to reach all generations...

Do realize... We will one day be the leaders of this nation. We will one day be the pastors and missionaries from this nation.

Encourage one and other and pray for one another, for we are all running a hard race... But let me tell you, it will be worth it in the end.

Solo Deo Gloria,

Megan

Short Update.

I am so glad it is summer... Seriously, I have NEVER missed a summer so much. Last year was so rushed with the move, unpacking, visiting family, and everything... and I never got a chance to enjoy MY summer -even though I haven't a clue what MY personal summer would look like. Don't get me wrong I loved last summer, but again it was rushed.

So, I am in a home. No more moving around for me -unless I decide to do so... No more packing or unpacking... This is it. I realized that this is going to be my last "Military style" year -unless my parents are staying in Clarksville longer, then I will stay with them. I am not quite sure what to think or make of it... Of course after this last year of high school, I will remain a full time student which means I get to keep my I.D. until I am... 21? Is that right? (Tyler or anyone else want to clarify?) So I can still go on post and use all the wonderful places such as: the commissary, the PX, and the Army hospital. (Haha, not sure if I really want to use thee Army hospital!) But... I don't know...

Anyways....

So I am guessing this summer will be FULL of scholarship applications, studying for the ACT, cleaning... And some fun events such as seeing my Daddy, going on vacation, visiting family, swimming, friends, and I am sure there are other things I am forgetting... But, you get the point.

I still can't believe where all the time has gone...

Well, I am off to continue cleaning my room. I have three years of school papers to go through and some unpacked boxes from moving that I haven't bothered with. Most of the things in the boxes are from when I was 9, 10, and 11... So, I don't know what to do with it. =/ Then I have to hang up a bunch of clothing and clean out my bathroom.

Fun.

You guys have a wonderful rest of the week and I want to know what YOU all are doing for this summer. Comment or Message me about that to!

Gooddddd bye!