I'm still doing well... But, I found lyrics to a beautiful song called the "Desert Song" by Brooke Frasier. I think we could all benefit from reading the lyrics, so here you go:
"This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow "
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
"Happiness pulses with every beat of my heart. " -Terri Guillemets
I'm lying here in my bed, bubbly and restless, all because today really has just been one of those "perfect" days. Honestly, while there are certain aspects of my day that I know I loved and that did make today special... I still wonder "why am I this happy?" I mean, my Fridays are routine and this isn't something I feel every Friday.
As I lie here and process my day... I'm going to do some research and try to decide "what is happiness." Since it is pretty late, this is going to be super short... But still: Enjoy.
***After a few quick Google searches and deep deep thought***
What is Happiness? The best definition I have found so far is from Henry War Beecher: "The strength and happiness of a man consists in finding out the way in which God is going, and going in that way too."
I must say, while it is difficult and even sometimes chaotic, following God is amazing. There is nothing like going through life following God, looking back, and seeing all that His hand has done. I mean, the CREATOR of EVERY living thing and the ONE who made the universe, stars, ocean, every single grain of sand, rain drop, and unique snow flake cares for me. He cares enough to guide me through life and He works every intricate detail out so perfectly... How amazing is that? That right there makes me happy... Actually, more joyful. But, you get the point.
Happiness is resting in perfect love. The perfect love that only our Father in heaven can give.
Looking back over my day, I can say that I have seen the blessings that my Maker Himself has given to me. I see a relationship, many friendships, I see a future, I know some of my desires... All because of God... All because of HIS love.
I hope this blog makes sense. It's late and I'm out of it.
Before you click a button to change screens on this computer I hope you stop to ponder God working in your life. I hope you stop and just take the time to realize how marvelous He is and I hope you can dwell in His perfect peace and His perfect love. Not that you should do that to find happiness, but I can guarantee it will spark something in you: joy, love, peace, comfort, happiness, patience, etc.
Much love,
Meggers
As I lie here and process my day... I'm going to do some research and try to decide "what is happiness." Since it is pretty late, this is going to be super short... But still: Enjoy.
***After a few quick Google searches and deep deep thought***
What is Happiness? The best definition I have found so far is from Henry War Beecher: "The strength and happiness of a man consists in finding out the way in which God is going, and going in that way too."
I must say, while it is difficult and even sometimes chaotic, following God is amazing. There is nothing like going through life following God, looking back, and seeing all that His hand has done. I mean, the CREATOR of EVERY living thing and the ONE who made the universe, stars, ocean, every single grain of sand, rain drop, and unique snow flake cares for me. He cares enough to guide me through life and He works every intricate detail out so perfectly... How amazing is that? That right there makes me happy... Actually, more joyful. But, you get the point.
Happiness is resting in perfect love. The perfect love that only our Father in heaven can give.
Looking back over my day, I can say that I have seen the blessings that my Maker Himself has given to me. I see a relationship, many friendships, I see a future, I know some of my desires... All because of God... All because of HIS love.
I hope this blog makes sense. It's late and I'm out of it.
Before you click a button to change screens on this computer I hope you stop to ponder God working in your life. I hope you stop and just take the time to realize how marvelous He is and I hope you can dwell in His perfect peace and His perfect love. Not that you should do that to find happiness, but I can guarantee it will spark something in you: joy, love, peace, comfort, happiness, patience, etc.
Much love,
Meggers
Monday, March 1, 2010
Anger...
Lately, I have found myself becoming angry, so easily. Now while I may have my moments, I am generally not an angry person. Noramally, I have a smile on my face and a cheerful heart... In fact, I have never been so easily angered and I have never found myself being pessimistic as I have been recently in my life! I have no clue where this bout has come from.
But, through this odd season in my life... I have made an important discovery:
I chose what emotion I will have -thus I can decide whether or not I will be "angry."
As a simple example, today I was chatting online with a friend. This friend worded his words a little oddly and then the sentence that he wrote was in all capitals. My first thought was “I can’t believe he just typed that! That was offensive…” Right then I realized that I could chose to get angry, or could have patience and either (A) ask what was meant by the comment or (B) see what was written by him next.
Long story short, I didn’t allow myself to get upset over something minor and I realized that it was me that was wrong. I had read his wording the wrong way and if I had just taken the time to patiently read what was written I would have seen why he used capital letters. I let anger get the best of me for just those few seconds and it’s amazing the lies and mean thoughts that come to mind.
This is just one small example of my anger... But there are many times in my day that I have the chance to become angry: maybe driving in my car, maybe when my brothers try to perturb me, or even when I see that my grade is low in a class. In all of these situations I can choose my emotion.
So, how is anger defeated?
I believe anger can be combated best by two things: (1) Love (2) Patience. (I would go into more detail, but I believe most of us know what love is and I believe most of us know what patience is.) If you are lacking in love or patience, I would like to encourage you to pray for these Fruit of the Spirit. They come in handy quite often and they can be used to glorify Christ in the most noticeable ways.
But, through this odd season in my life... I have made an important discovery:
I chose what emotion I will have -thus I can decide whether or not I will be "angry."
As a simple example, today I was chatting online with a friend. This friend worded his words a little oddly and then the sentence that he wrote was in all capitals. My first thought was “I can’t believe he just typed that! That was offensive…” Right then I realized that I could chose to get angry, or could have patience and either (A) ask what was meant by the comment or (B) see what was written by him next.
Long story short, I didn’t allow myself to get upset over something minor and I realized that it was me that was wrong. I had read his wording the wrong way and if I had just taken the time to patiently read what was written I would have seen why he used capital letters. I let anger get the best of me for just those few seconds and it’s amazing the lies and mean thoughts that come to mind.
This is just one small example of my anger... But there are many times in my day that I have the chance to become angry: maybe driving in my car, maybe when my brothers try to perturb me, or even when I see that my grade is low in a class. In all of these situations I can choose my emotion.
So, how is anger defeated?
I believe anger can be combated best by two things: (1) Love (2) Patience. (I would go into more detail, but I believe most of us know what love is and I believe most of us know what patience is.) If you are lacking in love or patience, I would like to encourage you to pray for these Fruit of the Spirit. They come in handy quite often and they can be used to glorify Christ in the most noticeable ways.
Friday, February 26, 2010
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future."
When you read Jeremiah 29:11, do you really believe that the Lord has plans for you? Do you really believe that His plans are for your good?
God has given me so much over the past year. I have been blessed beyond what I could ever imagine. I was so excited to see God's hand so prevalent in my life, in fact He worked in ways I can't even comprehend. God had revealed Himself to me in the most amazing ways.
Then, it all ended. Now, instead of blessings and God's love... I felt loneliness and my world felt like a wreak. Worst of all, my God felt a million miles away.
I didn't understand why God would give me so much, just to have it all taken away. But, I knew I had to make a choice. I could keep living and just ignore everything I was going though -basically ignore God. Or, I could patiently wait.
I chose to wait -though one may not describe my waiting as "patient." I have learned, as Brooke Frasier sings:
God has given me so much over the past year. I have been blessed beyond what I could ever imagine. I was so excited to see God's hand so prevalent in my life, in fact He worked in ways I can't even comprehend. God had revealed Himself to me in the most amazing ways.
Then, it all ended. Now, instead of blessings and God's love... I felt loneliness and my world felt like a wreak. Worst of all, my God felt a million miles away.
I didn't understand why God would give me so much, just to have it all taken away. But, I knew I had to make a choice. I could keep living and just ignore everything I was going though -basically ignore God. Or, I could patiently wait.
I chose to wait -though one may not describe my waiting as "patient." I have learned, as Brooke Frasier sings:
"When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same.
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray.
And I want you more, than I want to live another day.
And as I wait for you, maybe I'm made more faithful..."
I know that right now, all seems lost. But, I know that God knows the plans He has for me and His plans are for my good. I know that He cares for me -this is evident in the blessings and wonderful opportunities that I have had in the past year and even more-so evident in the Bible reading what God has given for me and others. And, I know that even though I may not be able to feel Him, see Him, or hear Him in ways that I wish I could right now... I long for Him. I long for my relationship with Him. And this period of waiting has just made me stronger in my faith.
Perhaps each day, I am becoming more faithful.
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray.
And I want you more, than I want to live another day.
And as I wait for you, maybe I'm made more faithful..."
I know that right now, all seems lost. But, I know that God knows the plans He has for me and His plans are for my good. I know that He cares for me -this is evident in the blessings and wonderful opportunities that I have had in the past year and even more-so evident in the Bible reading what God has given for me and others. And, I know that even though I may not be able to feel Him, see Him, or hear Him in ways that I wish I could right now... I long for Him. I long for my relationship with Him. And this period of waiting has just made me stronger in my faith.
Perhaps each day, I am becoming more faithful.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Finally!
These past two weeks have been the hardest of my few years as a Christian. I've been struggling just to do things I love: prayer, worship, reading the Bible, and discussing the Bible. The enemy has tried to use my past to take a hold of me whether though emotions, past sin life, or other things of my past. While I know God is always by my side, a few of the days, these past two weeks, He has felt far away and other days I felt Him, but just couldn't break through everything to get to Him. I've had problems, distractions, and it's been so difficult. I don't really know how to explain it... But pretty much: If it's not this, it's that... and if it's not that, it's this.
I remember listening to the song "Let the Waters Rise" by Mikeschair and praying the lyrics while singing them. (In case you have not heard it, you can listen to it here.) The lyrics at one point say "There's a raging sea, right in front of me. Wants to pull me in and bring me to my knees. So let the waters rise, if you want them to. I will follow you, I will follow you."
Well apparently God let the waters rise...
So while I have been feeling like I've been drowning in this mess, I have kept trying to persevere. Finally I got exhausted and I cried out to God and asked Him for help, strength, for a renewed spirit, and a few other things that I really needed.
God provided.
While I know the battle is not over. My victory is in Christ and Him alone. He has already conquered the evil one, so I will continue pushing and pulling through. I just have to keep in mind that the LORD alone is my strength and that He is the only way out of this mess.
In closing, let me show you the encouragement I received from God. I'm replacing a few words with my name, you can replace my name with yours. This is Isaiah 43:1-3a
"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Megan,
he who formed you, Megan;
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."
I don't know about you... But, that right there is encouraging! When I pass through these waters and feel like I am drowning, they will not sweep over and drown me. When I pass through the fire of an attack, I will not be destroyed. How awesome is that promise?
Thanks!
I remember listening to the song "Let the Waters Rise" by Mikeschair and praying the lyrics while singing them. (In case you have not heard it, you can listen to it here.) The lyrics at one point say "There's a raging sea, right in front of me. Wants to pull me in and bring me to my knees. So let the waters rise, if you want them to. I will follow you, I will follow you."
Well apparently God let the waters rise...
So while I have been feeling like I've been drowning in this mess, I have kept trying to persevere. Finally I got exhausted and I cried out to God and asked Him for help, strength, for a renewed spirit, and a few other things that I really needed.
God provided.
While I know the battle is not over. My victory is in Christ and Him alone. He has already conquered the evil one, so I will continue pushing and pulling through. I just have to keep in mind that the LORD alone is my strength and that He is the only way out of this mess.
In closing, let me show you the encouragement I received from God. I'm replacing a few words with my name, you can replace my name with yours. This is Isaiah 43:1-3a
"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Megan,
he who formed you, Megan;
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."
I don't know about you... But, that right there is encouraging! When I pass through these waters and feel like I am drowning, they will not sweep over and drown me. When I pass through the fire of an attack, I will not be destroyed. How awesome is that promise?
Thanks!
Monday, January 18, 2010
To Impact and back!
I must say, seven hour bus rides are amazing. Especially when the bus is full of teenagers. Yeah... No. I am here, living today. That right there is a testimony in and of itself.
Haha, okay! So, the bus ride wasn't that bad. I'm being way over dramatic! I actually really enjoyed the bus ride there and back, just because of the fellowship and the conversations I was able to have...
So. Impact.
Impact was all about answering the call that God places on our life. We got up, showered and got ready, went to chapel -for some quiet time in prayer and Bible reading, we would eat, play games, worship, listen to a message, and then do the eating, games, worship, and listen to a message two more times after the first.
I loved it!
I love living with believers and having fellowship with them daily. I love prayer and reading my Bible. I love quiet time, worship, and mentoring. I love messages, discipleship, and discussion... I love God and the call that He has placed upon my life.
It's so amazing to see Him work.
I saw lives changed and people come to Christ.
I saw surrender, full surrender.
I saw more of the call God has given to me... And, I am so excited.
So, that was impact. Hope you enjoyed my little blog.
Haha, okay! So, the bus ride wasn't that bad. I'm being way over dramatic! I actually really enjoyed the bus ride there and back, just because of the fellowship and the conversations I was able to have...
So. Impact.
Impact was all about answering the call that God places on our life. We got up, showered and got ready, went to chapel -for some quiet time in prayer and Bible reading, we would eat, play games, worship, listen to a message, and then do the eating, games, worship, and listen to a message two more times after the first.
I loved it!
I love living with believers and having fellowship with them daily. I love prayer and reading my Bible. I love quiet time, worship, and mentoring. I love messages, discipleship, and discussion... I love God and the call that He has placed upon my life.
It's so amazing to see Him work.
I saw lives changed and people come to Christ.
I saw surrender, full surrender.
I saw more of the call God has given to me... And, I am so excited.
So, that was impact. Hope you enjoyed my little blog.
Friday, January 15, 2010
A long week, all to end in IMPACT!
This week has been very trying and I honestly do believe that I have been under some sort of spiritual attack several days this week, in one form or another. It has been so rough... and there were days were I just did not understand why I could be feeling what I was feeling. But, I never gave up and God lent me HIS strength and through Him I was able to pull through. He pulled me through. I'm not saying it's over, but so far... I haven't been beat! And, I know that I will not be beat, because I am on God's side! If anyone reads these, please pray for me. Pray for strength and wisdom during this time.
Anyways! Moving on...
I am super excited for impact! I don't really know what we will be doing there, but I was told it was like camp. So... What's not to be excited about!? I have to admit that I am also looking forward to not having the computer... Not having a cell phone... Not having a car... Not having things that distract me from my priority - God.
That was one thing I really learned from camp. I don't need and I truly do not want any distractions in my life. I thought it was better having a simple life... Prayer walk in the morning, fellowship time, teachings, worship, food, and rest. It was so nice having such a simple week... and I learned so much. Better yet, without the distractions I was able to clearly hear God when He would speak to me and I was able to take time out of my day to just sit in silence and wait upon Him and His voice.
Man, I miss it!
I have taken up a daily Bible reading time and I spend quite a bit of time in prayer, but still I wish there was more. Right now, I am just trying to give at LEAST 10% of my time to God, and it's funny how I want to give MORE. Still the distractions are hindering my relationship with Christ... and that is not good. :C
We shall see what happens. Perhaps I will make some changes to my life again. (Not PERHAPS, I WILL)
Anyhoo! I am going to get packing and I will be leaving in less then two hours!!! Yay!
Love you all!
Megan Jazelle Wright
Anyways! Moving on...
I am super excited for impact! I don't really know what we will be doing there, but I was told it was like camp. So... What's not to be excited about!? I have to admit that I am also looking forward to not having the computer... Not having a cell phone... Not having a car... Not having things that distract me from my priority - God.
That was one thing I really learned from camp. I don't need and I truly do not want any distractions in my life. I thought it was better having a simple life... Prayer walk in the morning, fellowship time, teachings, worship, food, and rest. It was so nice having such a simple week... and I learned so much. Better yet, without the distractions I was able to clearly hear God when He would speak to me and I was able to take time out of my day to just sit in silence and wait upon Him and His voice.
Man, I miss it!
I have taken up a daily Bible reading time and I spend quite a bit of time in prayer, but still I wish there was more. Right now, I am just trying to give at LEAST 10% of my time to God, and it's funny how I want to give MORE. Still the distractions are hindering my relationship with Christ... and that is not good. :C
We shall see what happens. Perhaps I will make some changes to my life again. (Not PERHAPS, I WILL)
Anyhoo! I am going to get packing and I will be leaving in less then two hours!!! Yay!
Love you all!
Megan Jazelle Wright
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Intimidated By God's Calling Placed On My Life?
For the first time, since I have received God's calling, I feel intimidated about the task ahead of me. And, it's not just a little fear... I am confident that the word I am looking for is closer to "terrified." Why though!? At first, I was afraid of going alone and being by myself in a foreign country, but God was faithful with His promise to me and He has provided. Now, it's the mission as a whole! It's my future as a whole! IT'S EVERYTHING! I'm so nervous about all the timing and I'm frustrated with the fact that I have NO clue what I will be doing over there in Mongolia.
So, I would like to share with you what I learned about fear and where it comes from.
In 2 Timothy 1:7 we read that God "has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, sound judgment, and self control."
Through this verse, we know that fear is not of and from God. Therefore, fear is from the enemy -Satan.
It seems like fear is starting to kick in, in order to distract me from the mission HERE and NOW... and the enemy is doing a good job. Thankfully, God is on my side and He has already been and is victorious!
Why do I have such little faith (Matthew 8:26)? What is too big for my God to handle? Nothing.
So, today's lesson learned is that I need to trust and have faith in my God. Better yet, I need to surrender to His plans and allow Him to take control, because if I am on my own I will be overwhelmed. And lastly, that I need to not overlook what God plan for me is NOW and I need to continue serving and worshiping Him while I'm waiting...
Thanks for reading. You may see a few more posts where I am "struggling" with something. These posts help me collect my thoughts and force me to do some research in the Bible for a solution... So bare with me. Haha!
So, I would like to share with you what I learned about fear and where it comes from.
In 2 Timothy 1:7 we read that God "has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, sound judgment, and self control."
Through this verse, we know that fear is not of and from God. Therefore, fear is from the enemy -Satan.
It seems like fear is starting to kick in, in order to distract me from the mission HERE and NOW... and the enemy is doing a good job. Thankfully, God is on my side and He has already been and is victorious!
"... Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine. I will be with you when you pass through the waters, and when you pass through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. You will not be scorched when you walk through the fire, and the flame will not burn you." -Isaiah 43:1-2
There is nothing that my God can not handle and God will always be there to be my strength, my shepherd, comfort, and my Lord. How awesome is that?Why do I have such little faith (Matthew 8:26)? What is too big for my God to handle? Nothing.
So, today's lesson learned is that I need to trust and have faith in my God. Better yet, I need to surrender to His plans and allow Him to take control, because if I am on my own I will be overwhelmed. And lastly, that I need to not overlook what God plan for me is NOW and I need to continue serving and worshiping Him while I'm waiting...
Thanks for reading. You may see a few more posts where I am "struggling" with something. These posts help me collect my thoughts and force me to do some research in the Bible for a solution... So bare with me. Haha!
Monday, January 11, 2010
"... I will not be shaken" -Psalm 62:6
Today has been a really rough day for me and the worst part is, nothing has gone wrong. I feel like my world is falling apart and that God is so far away. I feel absolutely horrible and this all started last night.
Thankfully, someone posted the verse from Psalm 62:6 which says: "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." That post on a homemade music video reminded me that I just need to run to Him as my fortress and that through Him I am not and WILL NOT be shaken.
I am not going to let anything shake my faith and I am not going to let the darkness to pull me down. My victory is in Christ and Christ alone. I know that He is there and that I just have to continue pushing and pulling through.
I walk by faith, not by sight... I may not feel the best right now and I may not feel as if God's next to me, but like the song "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl "I'll hold tight to what I know, because you're here and I'm never alone"
Thanks for dealing with a "not so happy" post...
Much love,
Megan Jazelle Wright
Thankfully, someone posted the verse from Psalm 62:6 which says: "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." That post on a homemade music video reminded me that I just need to run to Him as my fortress and that through Him I am not and WILL NOT be shaken.
I am not going to let anything shake my faith and I am not going to let the darkness to pull me down. My victory is in Christ and Christ alone. I know that He is there and that I just have to continue pushing and pulling through.
I walk by faith, not by sight... I may not feel the best right now and I may not feel as if God's next to me, but like the song "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl "I'll hold tight to what I know, because you're here and I'm never alone"
Thanks for dealing with a "not so happy" post...
Much love,
Megan Jazelle Wright
Friday, January 8, 2010
Good Grief! I haven't posted in forever!
So much has happened since this summer and, honestly, it is overwhelming! Let me try to sum it all up for you:
Please, please pray for me... I am really nervous about my future, in the sense of time. Like I said, God has revealed the basic outline of my life and I know everything that I need to know about my future. Now, it's just waiting to see what His timing is and what goes where in which year... So to say.
I have a feeling I am not making much sense... I have issues articulating my thoughts... :(
Anyways, have a wonderful weekend and I will try to keep you all updated on here!
- My Daddy is home from thee Sand Box! Yay!
- While my Dad may be back, I only get to spend seven to eight months with him and the family... The Army put my father on orders for FT. Rucker, AL. I am NOT moving down with them. I just have to decide how long I am staying here until I move down to Toccoa Falls, GA for schooling.
- This year at camp, I decided to fully give my life to God and to become completely and wholly His. God really worked on me for a few months and on Oct. the 18th He officially called me, once again, to be a full time missionary to U.B, Mongolia.This time I accepted His call and surrendered completely to His will. Since then I have had the basic outline of my future mapped out for me and God has blessed me so much... I can't truly tell you how excited and how grateful I am for everything God has given me and I am so amazed that He is giving me another chance at life. I am SO undeserving!
- School just started again! I am finishing up my last semester of High School... Middle College has been wonderful to and for me! Currently I am only taking ONE class in High School and it is economics. When College starts up I will be taking two classes with Austin Peay: English 1020 and Music Appreciation and I will be taking U.S. History and Christian Worldview with Bryan College.
Please, please pray for me... I am really nervous about my future, in the sense of time. Like I said, God has revealed the basic outline of my life and I know everything that I need to know about my future. Now, it's just waiting to see what His timing is and what goes where in which year... So to say.
I have a feeling I am not making much sense... I have issues articulating my thoughts... :(
Anyways, have a wonderful weekend and I will try to keep you all updated on here!
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