Finally!

These past two weeks have been the hardest of my few years as a Christian. I've been struggling just to do things I love: prayer, worship, reading the Bible, and discussing the Bible. The enemy has tried to use my past to take a hold of me whether though emotions, past sin life, or other things of my past. While I know God is always by my side, a few of the days, these past two weeks, He has felt far away and other days I felt Him, but just couldn't break through everything to get to Him. I've had problems, distractions, and it's been so difficult. I don't really know how to explain it... But pretty much: If it's not this, it's that... and if it's not that, it's this.

I remember listening to the song "Let the Waters Rise" by Mikeschair and praying the lyrics while singing them. (In case you have not heard it, you can listen to it here.) The lyrics at one point say "There's a raging sea, right in front of me. Wants to pull me in and bring me to my knees. So let the waters rise, if you want them to. I will follow you, I will follow you."

Well apparently God let the waters rise...

So while I have been feeling like I've been drowning in this mess, I have kept trying to persevere. Finally I got exhausted and I cried out to God and asked Him for help, strength, for a renewed spirit, and a few other things that I really needed.

God provided.

While I know the battle is not over. My victory is in Christ and Him alone. He has already conquered the evil one, so I will continue pushing and pulling through. I just have to keep in mind that the LORD alone is my strength and that He is the only way out of this mess.

In closing, let me show you the encouragement I received from God. I'm replacing a few words with my name, you can replace my name with yours. This is Isaiah 43:1-3a

"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Megan,
he who formed you, Megan;
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

² When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

³ For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."

I don't know about you... But, that right there is encouraging! When I pass through these waters and feel like I am drowning, they will not sweep over and drown me. When I pass through the fire of an attack, I will not be destroyed. How awesome is that promise?

Thanks!

To Impact and back!

I must say, seven hour bus rides are amazing. Especially when the bus is full of teenagers. Yeah... No. I am here, living today. That right there is a testimony in and of itself.

Haha, okay! So, the bus ride wasn't that bad. I'm being way over dramatic! I actually really enjoyed the bus ride there and back, just because of the fellowship and the conversations I was able to have...

So. Impact.

Impact was all about answering the call that God places on our life. We got up, showered and got ready, went to chapel -for some quiet time in prayer and Bible reading, we would eat, play games, worship, listen to a message, and then do the eating, games, worship, and listen to a message two more times after the first.

I loved it!

I love living with believers and having fellowship with them daily. I love prayer and reading my Bible. I love quiet time, worship, and mentoring. I love messages, discipleship, and discussion... I love God and the call that He has placed upon my life.

It's so amazing to see Him work.

I saw lives changed and people come to Christ.

I saw surrender, full surrender.

I saw more of the call God has given to me... And, I am so excited.

So, that was impact. Hope you enjoyed my little blog.

A long week, all to end in IMPACT!

This week has been very trying and I honestly do believe that I have been under some sort of spiritual attack several days this week, in one form or another. It has been so rough... and there were days were I just did not understand why I could be feeling what I was feeling. But, I never gave up and God lent me HIS strength and through Him I was able to pull through. He pulled me through. I'm not saying it's over, but so far... I haven't been beat! And, I know that I will not be beat, because I am on God's side! If anyone reads these, please pray for me. Pray for strength and wisdom during this time.

Anyways! Moving on...

I am super excited for impact! I don't really know what we will be doing there, but I was told it was like camp. So... What's not to be excited about!? I have to admit that I am also looking forward to not having the computer... Not having a cell phone... Not having a car... Not having things that distract me from my priority - God.

That was one thing I really learned from camp. I don't need and I truly do not want any distractions in my life. I thought it was better having a simple life... Prayer walk in the morning, fellowship time, teachings, worship, food, and rest. It was so nice having such a simple week... and I learned so much. Better yet, without the distractions I was able to clearly hear God when He would speak to me and I was able to take time out of my day to just sit in silence and wait upon Him and His voice.

Man, I miss it!

I have taken up a daily Bible reading time and I spend quite a bit of time in prayer, but still I wish there was more. Right now, I am just trying to give at LEAST 10% of my time to God, and it's funny how I want to give MORE. Still the distractions are hindering my relationship with Christ... and that is not good. :C

We shall see what happens. Perhaps I will make some changes to my life again. (Not PERHAPS, I WILL)

Anyhoo! I am going to get packing and I will be leaving in less then two hours!!! Yay!

Love you all!

Megan Jazelle Wright

Intimidated By God's Calling Placed On My Life?

For the first time, since I have received God's calling, I feel intimidated about the task ahead of me. And, it's not just a little fear... I am confident that the word I am looking for is closer to "terrified." Why though!? At first, I was afraid of going alone and being by myself in a foreign country, but God was faithful with His promise to me and He has provided. Now, it's the mission as a whole! It's my future as a whole! IT'S EVERYTHING! I'm so nervous about all the timing and I'm frustrated with the fact that I have NO clue what I will be doing over there in Mongolia.

So, I would like to share with you what I learned about fear and where it comes from.

In 2 Timothy 1:7 we read that God "has not given us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, sound judgment, and self control."

Through this verse, we know that fear is not of and from God. Therefore, fear is from the enemy -Satan.

It seems like fear is starting to kick in, in order to distract me from the mission HERE and NOW... and the enemy is doing a good job. Thankfully, God is on my side and He has already been and is victorious!

"... Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine. I will be with you when you pass through the waters, and when you pass through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. You will not be scorched when you walk through the fire, and the flame will not burn you." -Isaiah 43:1-2

There is nothing that my God can not handle and God will always be there to be my strength, my shepherd, comfort, and my Lord. How awesome is that?

Why do I have such little faith (Matthew 8:26)? What is too big for my God to handle? Nothing.

So, today's lesson learned is that I need to trust and have faith in my God. Better yet, I need to surrender to His plans and allow Him to take control, because if I am on my own I will be overwhelmed. And lastly, that I need to not overlook what God plan for me is NOW and I need to continue serving and worshiping Him while I'm waiting...

Thanks for reading. You may see a few more posts where I am "struggling" with something. These posts help me collect my thoughts and force me to do some research in the Bible for a solution... So bare with me. Haha!

"... I will not be shaken" -Psalm 62:6

Today has been a really rough day for me and the worst part is, nothing has gone wrong. I feel like my world is falling apart and that God is so far away. I feel absolutely horrible and this all started last night.

Thankfully, someone posted the verse from Psalm 62:6 which says: "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." That post on a homemade music video reminded me that I just need to run to Him as my fortress and that through Him I am not and WILL NOT be shaken.

I am not going to let anything shake my faith and I am not going to let the darkness to pull me down. My victory is in Christ and Christ alone. I know that He is there and that I just have to continue pushing and pulling through.

I walk by faith, not by sight... I may not feel the best right now and I may not feel as if God's next to me, but like the song "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl "I'll hold tight to what I know, because you're here and I'm never alone"

Thanks for dealing with a "not so happy" post...

Much love,
Megan Jazelle Wright

Good Grief! I haven't posted in forever!

So much has happened since this summer and, honestly, it is overwhelming! Let me try to sum it all up for you:

• My Daddy is home from thee Sand Box! Yay!

• While my Dad may be back, I only get to spend seven to eight months with him and the family... The Army put my father on orders for FT. Rucker, AL. I am NOT moving down with them. I just have to decide how long I am staying here until I move down to Toccoa Falls, GA for schooling.
  

• This year at camp, I decided to fully give my life to God and to become completely and wholly His. God really worked on me for a few months and on Oct. the 18th He officially called me, once again, to be a full time missionary to U.B, Mongolia.This time I accepted His call and surrendered completely to His will. Since then I have had the basic outline of my future mapped out for me and God has blessed me so much... I can't truly tell you how excited and how grateful I am for everything God has given me and I am so amazed that He is giving me another chance at life. I am SO undeserving!
  

• School just started again! I am finishing up my last semester of High School... Middle College has been wonderful to and for me! Currently I am only taking ONE class in High School and it is economics. When College starts up I will be taking two classes with Austin Peay: English 1020 and Music Appreciation and I will be taking U.S. History and Christian Worldview with Bryan College.
  

I guess those are the only two main points. I could go on and on about both, but I will spare you and your time!

Please, please pray for me... I am really nervous about my future, in the sense of time. Like I said, God has revealed the basic outline of my life and I know everything that I need to know about my future. Now, it's just waiting to see what His timing is and what goes where in which year... So to say.

I have a feeling I am not making much sense... I have issues articulating my thoughts... :(

Anyways, have a wonderful weekend and I will try to keep you all updated on here!